Have You Forgotten Me?

How many times have I asked God that question. How many times have I yelled at Him, begged Him, wondered at Him about His intentions towards me. It's where my brain goes first when situations get hard, when I find myself in a difficult spot. I accuse Him of being far off, of putting me out in the cold, of leaving me abandoned in a corner. For me it comes from my childhood; having a father that would threaten to leave me, and my entire family and never come back. I believe others would do the same, especially God. My fiancee and I came across this passage this morning in our devotions (I love being able to say that- Fiancee) :)

Message - Isaiah 49:14But Zion said, "I don't get it. God has left me.
My Master has forgotten I even exist."
16I'd never forget you—never. Look, I've written your names on the backs of my hands.

NIV - Isaiah 49:14 But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me,
the Lord has forgotten me.
16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;

I posted both verses mainly because I think they both have something special to contribute. The first speaks so much of my heart in those hard times. I don't get it. I'm frustrated, and the only conclusion I can come up with is that He has left me, He has forgotten me, and that I am alone in this big world.

The second version speaks of Him engraving us.. not our names, not our pictures, but US on His hands. I write on my hands to remember very important things. I know if I put something on my hand it will be there when I look down and I will never forget what I am trying so hard to keep (an appointment, a person in prayer whatever). It's the same way with God. He values us, keeps us in His thoughts, keeps us on His hand. I love that picture.

So.. I'm not alone, abandoned or forgotten. How could I be? The creator of the universe has me in doodle form on His hands. Very cool!!