All Kinds Of Stuff In The Trunk

Well it's been a busy few weeks for sure. Lots of "stuff" going on.. It's funny how life goes into fast forward sometimes on you - things, events, relationships all go crazy in whirlwinds for a while and you just kinda sit there wondering what it's all going to look like when you get out the other side. I love that life can seem so mundane and blah for so long and then *wham* you get hit on the head with reality.. And you just laugh when the reality you though you were living with is shattered, and you are now enjoying the new one. Life is funny that way, always changing and moving and growing and expanding and never once letting you know what's going on. I love having no conrol over the future, and I hate it all at the same time. I would love to see things stay the same, but I don't know how that is even possible. Life is too fluid, it's kind of like attempting to hold onto water. You can put it in a cup but it's never contained, you can try to hold it back but it will seep out around the edges and up over the top of your barrier. Life gets you, you don't get life.

It's A Very Sad Day In My Neighbourhood

Well.. today with the help of a very kind tattoo artist I got rid of my nosering. I took it out cause there is a keloid right next to my piercing.. It is getting larger, and my worst fear is that it will not get better. So we made the decision today to get rid of it. I'm sad, cause i really would like to keep the piercing, but it's not very pretty the way it is right now. SO i'll deal with the fact that my skin doesn't handle piercings very well, learn a very valuable lesson about vanity and move on.

Life Must Go On..

In your heart God has excavated an immense space where he has placed a
precious treasure. From now on you have the twofold duty of receiving
and giving: sharing the treasure of the kingdom you bear within you and
stretching the area of your tent for those around you.

Anonymous

Our Hearts Are Crazy Things

I find it strange about one's heart how it is constantly seeking for more. My being is always wanting something more, whether it's new clothes, or a new experience, or more love. From simple things to the large things, it's almost like what we have is never enough. They say that a heart is made up of muscle (well I guess they say it is because it actually is). And that exercising that muscle will expand it and grow it. I'm sure that's true with a lot of things, greed, negativity, thoughtfulness and generosity. The more you practice it, the more that you live with it in your life, the greater the appetite for it. I am amazed that with God, no matter what state my heart or the reality of His presence is, I am never satisfied. Sometimes I can be apathetic, or angry, or blessed, but hardly ever content. The desire and yearning for a deeper sense of who He is continues. I want to know Him more completely, and I want to know His design and plan for my world and the world around me. I love that after months of barrenness in my spiritual life, He is waking me up to want to KNOW Him more intimately. Again my heart is being stretched and exercised, and it is growing in it's desire for Him all over again. It will never be satisfied with the "amount" of Jesus it has, and it will never reach a saturation point. I love that about God's love, that there is always more.