It's One of Those Things

Liking a guy and finding out he has no interest in you is a crazy thing. I'd love to be the type of girl who guys are totally into, one of those girls who can take their pick of men, instead of scrounging around the bottom of the barrel, hoping for someones leftovers. Unfortunatly, I am not that type of girl. Guys don't ever seem to notice me, or seem to see me as a "datable" personality. It's genuinely irritating and sometimes really isolating. I really have not been asked out for real in like over a year, and by someone that really was "elligible" hm... probably 10 years. It's a depressing thought really. I could be dead before Mr. Right comes along. Should be interesting for him though, to have a corpse bride.

Even if there was someone I could just BE interested in, and really seem like there might be a possibility of something. I had some hopes dashed this weekend. Found a guy that was at least my age, at least loved Jesus, and enjoyed some of the activities that I do, but alas, I am not his type, and he doesn't like me in that way. It's a bit disconcering, and lots of times I'm self-concious about the lack of manly attention my way. What the heck is wrong with me. Back I go to the "I am a complete freak" head space.

YELK