UGH

I hate dreams, i hate what they do to your sleep. I hate how they totally hijack an otherwise great sleep and turn your night into one crazy evening. I was paralyzed in this one, or was drugged so I couldn't move, and i woke up needing to call for help but there were no words in my mouth. I seemed to be awake and haven't yet figured out if I was actually awake or if I was just dreaming that I was awake. Either way, it was a scary fitful sleep, and by the time 6am came I was beside myself.

Besides the dreaming my friend lonliness who is a constant companion has come for a party in my life this week. I have really good friends, and lots of "people" around me. But there is something missing. And maybe it's constant communication with God that I am missing, but it seems to be something in a person that I am lacking right now. I can't even articulate what it is, but lonliness is my friend today.