Again With The Psycho Chick Day

So again here i am having another Psycho Chick Day, you know those days when you are TOTALLY irrational, and you have no energy to do anything of any consequence, and where you just want to scream and yell, and sook and complain, and laugh and cry (and that's all in one minute). Anyway, i am depressed and high strung all on the same day, it's difficult to even understand myself today. Man, it's probably a good thing there isn't a guy in my life right now, because he would be TRULY confused.

What's Left To Say

So you leave this week. And I'm sitting here wondering if I have anything left to say to you. Words that I will wish one day that I had shared with you, something I wanted to scream at you but never did. Dreams and hopes for your life I never let you in on.

I don't have any more words. Other than you hurt me. I don't have any other comments other than I'm glad you are moving on. I am glad that you are going to a new place, meeting new friends, and getting a different life. I know that you are a brilliant person, full of potential and capable of great love. I hope this is the time in your life that you will see it realized.

I'm glad I won't have to look for you on the weekends, or wonder if you will call. The distance will take care of that. I won't have to wonder what you are doing, or imagine where you are, because you will be in a new setting and doing things I will know nothing about.

I don't have any more words, no more thanks, no more pain. Just a realization that this is the end. I am grateful for that.

Funny How Things Go

It's funny how things go sometimes. For example, I have been afraid of dancing all my life. In Jr. High it was because my best friend LOVED to dance, and was an amazing dancer, and I couldn't ever HOPE to compete with that, so I just stopped dancing. When I got married, I stopped trying to dance because my x-husband would tell me how horrible of a dancer I was. I gave up that I had any rhythm in my body, or could ever hope to dance.

This past weekend, God came, and convinced me to try dancing. He gave me assurance that I could, and took me through the circumstance. Now this once foot tied individual is a dancing fool! I love how He works, each day revealing more and more of the freedom that He has placed in your life.