Longing

I'm longing today for home, for a place where there is no stress or worry, only rest. A place where I don't have to be concerned about who I am, only be concerned with who I'm with. Somewhere where I can rest from trying, grabbing, effort, life in general and search for the something else that I am looking for. Part of me wants the out, the escape, the place where I cease to exist. This level of pain, or hurt of exhaustion is frustrating and irritating. I don't feel or look like myself right now. It is time to give up but I don't even have the energy to do that. I long for home today, in a way I can't even express.